Endless (April 20, 2010)

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Endless days
Sleepless nights
somethings wrong
turn off the light
hide we must
hes on his way
pray to God
we survive the day
he will destroy us
its all he knows
pain and suffering
wherever he goes
I feel his breath
it burns my skin
i thought he was gone
but hes here again
he wants inside
he wants my soul
never again
will he take control
fight I will
Fight I must
..........
down I fall
beaten and betrayed
Lord why
couldnt you save me this day

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